hello autumn, stay for a while?

Fall it is the perfect day for movies and comfy clothes. i'm loving the cold, rainy weather. i'm spending all evening curled up on the couch in pj's. it's the best! (:

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i really think i hate you.

"Hope is not pretending that troubles don't exist. It is the trust that they will not last forever that hurts will be healed and difficulties overcome. It is faith that a source of strength and renewal lies within to lead us through the dark to the light."

it's funny how all of life's hurts seem to hurt as if you've never felt pain before. i'm beginning to notice how these past two years have changed me. i feel like an abused puppy; hesitant and distrusting. i think seeing these changes hurts worse than the pain that caused it.

i really think i hate you.

"like the sun and the moon..."

"...i will circle you til you bloom."

regardless of everything, i'm feeling pretty great. i don't think i've ever recovered faster. i don't think i've ever been more proud. i'm finding all the pieces of myself that i left behind. marilyn monroe was right, sometimes good things do fall apart so that better things can fall together.

i guess i should thank you for showing me exactly how life shouldn't be.

lucy in the sky with diamonds

i have never been so ready for whats next. tonight was the perfect night. my life starts now.




"and everything is going to the beat."


my heart is singing right now
the past is burning out of me
like a fever
this cold is draining from my pores
and i've never been so satisfied
it's so perfect
nothing matters
just beats and blood and sweat
teeth grinding
music stretching from my ear
the past is burning out of me
let it scream out of every corner
i
've
never
been
more ready