"i'll be holding all the tickets..."

"..but you'll be owning all the fines."

endings have never been my strong suit. they always end in someone getting hurt and it's usually me. i can handle that though; i'm used to that. it's hurting someone else that i can't do. there's no right way.

just another hit and miss.

heard your broken voice on the telephone

made my heavy heart sink like a stone

and after all this time, i should have known

you'd let me down

right down to the bone

you know you're right, im incomplete

and i could never write down what i mean

and if you told me that the world, was ending tonight

that's alright by me

hey babe

i feel as though, i failed you

i feel as though, you don't want me

i keep kickin' myself

they say that anything can be replaced

found another girl to pass the days

she is beautiful, she has your face

there is nothing, time will not erase

and hey babe, I feel as though I've lost you

and I feel as though, you dont want me and I keep kickin' myself

and lately, when i sleep alone

i feel that, i oughta learn

you dont need me

just stop kidding myself

im loving this song and video

it's tricky when

"With a palmful of stars
I throw them like dice
Repeatedly
I shake them like dice
And throw them on the table
Repeatedly
Repeatedly
Until the desired constellation appears"

let's try this again.

why is it that we always seem to miss each other? the timing is always off with you and i. and, somehow, you always seem to find me again. i never wait around for you. i know you wouldn't want me to.

i've never been the type to hesitate. Regret is my least favorite feeling. so, once again, i am not waiting around for you, i'm going to take another chance on something else and see where this takes me. i think it will be very worth it.

i do miss those long drives and aimless conversations.
we seemed to say everything and nothing all at once.

"i love that, no matter how long we go without talking, it feels like nothings changed."
"me too."

i feel like we're back in that empty parking lot, in your white alero, years ago and you're telling me how you're so sorry, but that this is all you can give me and i'm still strangely content with the idea because somehow i know that one way or another i'll always have you.

you're the only bridge i haven't burned.

in for the kill

let's go to war

to make peace

let's be cold

to create heat

i hope in darkness

we can see

and you're not blinded

by the light from me

for as much as i hate change and uncertainty, i am surprisingly okay with the way things are going. i'm starting to see the fun in not knowing. i like being forced to depend on myself and all the risks of being out of my comfort zone makes everything that much more enjoyable.

i realize more and more each day that i don't need you and never really did.

you're just as i remember, but i'm forgetting why it mattered

i'm too proud for love

there's a possibilitythere's a possibility
all that i had was all i'm gon' get
there's a possibilitythere's a possibility
all i'm gonna get is gone with your step
all i'm gonna get is gone with your step

so tell me when you hear my heart stop
you're the only one that knows
tell me when you hear my silence
there's a possibility i wouldn't know

know that when you leave
know that when you leave
by blood and by mean you walk like a theif
by blood and by mean and i fall when you leave

so tell me when you hear my heart stop
you're the only one that knows
tell me when you hear my silence
there's a possibility i wouldn't know

so tell me when my sigh is over
you're the reason why i'm close
tell me when you hear me falling
there's a possibility it wouldn't show

by blood and by mean i fall when you leave
by blood and by mean i follow your lead