the wackness

i really love it. you should really watch it. seriously, you'll love it. if not, then you are confused.

"know what your problem is, shapiro? it's that you just have this really shitty way of looking at things, ya know? i don't have that problem. i just look at the dopeness. but you, it's like you just look at the wackness, ya know?"

"so that was all bullshit right? all that stuff about embracing your pain, making it a part of you? you can't do this, you can't just give up. life is hard and it's full of pain and what-not, but we take it cause there's great stuff too. and we can do it cause we have friends- because we have each other."



ahhhhhhhh i love it. i love it love it love it.

watch it asap and take it all in and then do with it what you will. as Stephen Chbosky said, "be a filter, not a sponge."

you're the honey and the moon

Don't know why I'm still afraid

If you weren't real I would make you up

now

I wish that I could follow through

I know that your love is true

and deep

[as the sea]

but right now

everything you want is wrong,

and right now

all your dreams are waking up,

and right now

I wish I could follow you

to the shores

of freedom,

where no one lives.

{Remember when we first met

and everything was still a bet}

in love's game

you would call; I'd call you back

and then I'd leave

a message

on your answering

machine

But right now

everything is turning blue,

and right now

the sun is trying to kill the moon,

and right now

I wish I could follow you

to the shores

of freedom,

[where no one lives.]

Freedom,

run away tonight

freedom, freedom

run away

run away tonight

We're made out of [blood] and [rust]

looking for someone to trust

without

a fight

I think that you came too soon

you're the {honey and the moon}

that lights

up my night

But right now

everything you want is wrong,

and right now

all your dreams are waking up,

and right now

I wish that I could follow you

to the shores

of freedom

where no one lives

We got too much time to kill

[like pigeons on my windowsill]

we hang around

{Ever since I've been with you}

you hold me up

all the time I'm falling down

But right now

everything is turning blue,

and right now

{the sun is trying to kill the moon,}

and right now

i wish i could follow you

to the shores

of freedom

where no one lives

freedom

run away tonight

freedom freedom

run away

run away tonight

this song says it better than i ever could. this could have been so perfect, if it came at any other time. at this point in my life i should be making all of my dreams come true, but i can't. is love worth putting your life on hold? or will leaving your dreams for someone eventually spoil what love you have? did we grow up too soon?

"all your dreams are waking up..."

"i think that you came too soon"

i need some time for myself, but i'm not giving up. i just wish we could skip ahead together. {run away tonight.}

"i wish i could."

"you can."

update

so, my friend derek is taking an environmental science class and it got me thinking about living a little greener. Starting today, in addition to using those green cleaning products, i'll be returning my plastic bags to wal-mart and recycling my cans and bottles.

you should consider changing at least one thing about the way you're living as well. start small. i mean, why not?



changing the subject, i have this new ridiculous obsession with the o.c.. i have no idea where it came from. i'm just hooked. i guess that's what happens when you have no life and an addictive personality. i love marissa and her alcohol problems and seth and his incessant talking and i love all the relationship problems. well i don't love the relationship problems, but they always keep me coming back for more.

gawd, i need a social life.

i'm going to go make some coffee. you go watch the o.c. so that you will understand.